أراك تهمس في أحلامي
سأحبّك لمدى الأزمان
عشقك يعصف كياني
يدغدغ عمق أعماقي
يداعبني فينسيني أشجاني
يغريني ، يعذبني ، يبكيني
وأعود مكسورة الجناحين
ألملم، مخنوقة ، أشلائي
الضائعة في مدى الأكوان
صعقني غبنك وأبقاني
مسمّرة ،أراجع أفكاري
وحيدة أصارع ذكرياتي
وجهك المخادع المبتسم
لطفك الماكر المزيّن
يكويني،يذلّني ،ويجعلني
أذوب من كثرة الغثيان
نايلة زيادة
9/12/2009
DSP1: part 1 of project 1
subjec: constructing the lens
level of tolerance: 40% and dropping!
level of understanding: (cannot be discussed)
level of lucky guesses: please refer to level of understanding
hours of sleeping: what is sleeping???
we’ve come to a day where everyone knows at least someone dying of cancer.
we’ve come to a day where a mother kills her children, a son kills his father and a man kills his brother…
we’ve come to a day of procrastinating, snoozing, and clubbing 24/7.
we’ve come to a day where i chat with my brother, sms my friend, and miss-call my mother.
2012… the end of the world, well i think not! the end of the world was yesterday, is today, and we’re still dying.
we’ve come to a day where everyone’s concerned with global warming and lining of the planets, instead of noticing that we are extinguishing ourselves with our own hands.
we’ve come to a day where we get to decide our lifetime on earth.
we’ve come to a day where we commit murder and suicide for love, revenge and money.
what happened to the goodness in people? what happened to: Today i wanna make someone happy? it is a small gesture, a little word or a good action that can make the difference.
i believe that good things happen to good people, or in a less euphoric world, treat people the way you like to be treated, be in 2 places at once if you can, because that’s how my friend we get to come to the day , where ‘the end of the world” does not exist (or doesn’t have a meaning for that matter!)
city street conference day 1:
me with john mcmillan & john kortbawi
a must see! i love it when different stories interconnect…
you know these days where you bump into someone (that someone who is no one in particular, someone you wouldn’t remember if you hadn’t encountered) someone who will catch your eye while driving for instance. as insignificant as this coincidence seems, nobody realizes how many things had to go wrong, and how many things had to go right during the day for you and him to be able to meet for that brief moment. the fact of him drinking milk or orange juice for breakfast could have determined his being at the same place and time as you. it’s whether he brushed his teeth that morning, or if you forgot to pee before u leave. it’s whether he snoozed his alarm clock or you took the stairs instead of the lift. and even if that encounter won’t add anything to our life, we have to admire, well i don’t know what to call it except, the ironic organization of fate. maybe not! maybe it’s none of the above, maybe it’s just pure coincidence, but it makes me wonder if we are the puppets in a greater game called LIFE, or human life for that matter. coincidence… i think not!
in life there are ups and downs,
and sometimes more down than up,
sometimes we lose our dearest,
we try to recover, sometimes we succeed, other times we don’t,
it all depends on nadim the cable guy! 
i brought him my computer so many times i can’t remember…
when it was old
when it suddenly died on me,
when it needed a format etc…
i am not gonna get all emotional on you now, but i figured out why we become so sad, so lost, desperate and slightly hysterical, when we are forced into sudden formatting.
you would think that i am talking about unrecoverable data, important photos, projects you nearly finished and don’t have back up somewhere else…
but NO! it is (1st for me) the 9 GB of music you’ve been growing on your itunes all these years and suddenly pouff!
it’s all the emoticons you’ve been collecting from here and there on msn…
it’s all those bookmarks you saved on your safari…
it’s all these little things,
that, when accessible, had little meaning,
now i want to share something with you:
meet Nicholas Felton
he is 31 years old
lives in new york city
spends his spare time developing DAYTUM
he made a statistical report on every single detail in his life for a year (here 2007), artists he likes, music he listened to, how many times, every place he’s been, every way of transportation he used, every meal he had (including how many times he had sushi, chicken, red meat, fish…), photos he’s taken, with who, and how many times, movies he saw, his favorites, books he read, every drink he had… you name it, he hasn’t forgot a thing!
AND he’s done it beautifully!
and that my friend is trust worthy information design!
P.S. every new year, i make a resolution to do this, and just about the third day i manage to lose track
it seems there’s a certain competition on facebook FOR HE WHO HAS MORE FRIENDS, SHALL WIN! that’s why you end up having the weirdest people on your list: some you have absolutely no contact with, what so ever; some you see everyday but never talk to; some who are just trying to make a collection of single girls; some looking for a “serious” relationship on facebook (seriously! come on); and the list goes on…
now i don’t know if having 489 friend (at the least) satisfies your ego, or you’re just THAT popular? but i cannot imagine if one day every single one of these 489 wrote on your wall, how much time it will take you to reply? 
i find having too many friends, very tiring and time consuming: keeping up with them, remembering them (in my case ), remembering their birthdays, feeling their pain (because from time to time, a friend of a friend of a friend will eventually die, you know what i mean, and you don’t need that!) it is emotionally exhausting!
besides most of them aren’t really your friends, in the true meaning of the word. that’s why i came up with a small list to help you differ from your true friends and the ‘WANNABEs’. a true friend is a person who:
1. calls you or sees you at least once a week ( msn and facebook do not count!)
2. is there when you’re sad, and by that we can exclude partying bodies (a guy/girl you meet in a bar in jemmayzeh, for one evening, does not count as well )
2. shares his happiness/success with you, or let me put it in another way not to sound like a greeting card, one who remembers you when he’s shining, not only when he wants to nag!
so there you go start removing friends, and you can thank me later
P.S. if you follow the previous procedure, you will end up with 10 friends and 389 people you may know
